05. MY JOURNEY WITH PAIN. My favorite stumbling block.
Blood tests showed nothing. And all the specific immunological tests for arthritis were also negative, so they told me there was practically nothing serious going on. There seemed to be nothing to justify those pains. A few years later, I learned from an acupuncturist in Genoa that mine was a form called 'seronegative form.' Still, at the time, the first doctors I called on understood nothing about it. The last rheumatologist who visited me prescribed me for psychotropic drugs. I took one and felt it was not my story. Rather! I immediately went into a bar to have a coffee and come back.
In the past, I had already experienced a form of acupuncture that was very influential on me. I knew that I would choose the path of non-chemical and non-traditional care. The symptoms were too strong, and I was sure there was an ongoing disease without being a doctor! Along with these thoughts, understanding matured in me that something had to learn from that experience, something for my inner growth. Those pains were messages, screams! I was starting to know my intuition, an intimate certainty that came from a deeper reality.
I felt that I had to change something in my daily life: something simple and 'feasible.' Before settling on the French Riviera, I had practiced Hata Yoga and some Vipassana meditation in Genoa with an Indian teacher. I missed that constant relationship with me, outside of doing, from saying and from everyday life. I got into the habit of going in the late afternoon to contemplate the sea and meditate, waiting for the sunset. What a beauty!
I had my favorite rock near home. There I allowed myself not to be 'strong and in one piece,' and I was in contact with me. In those moments of no thought, I touched the deepest part of me. The sound of the sea gave me strength, and the sun warmed me.
"The body is the visible soul, and the soul is the invisible body. Body and soul are not separate; they are part of each other; they are parts of a Whole. You have to accept your body. You have to love it, respect it, be grateful to it. It is the most complex mechanism of existence; it is simply wonderful! Blessed are those who marvel at it!
So start to wonder about your body because it is the closest thing to you. The most intimate nature of the body has approached you through the body, and the most hidden existence has come to you. In your body, there is the water of the oceans, the fire of the stars and suns, the air, the earth.
It represents the entire existence, all the elements. What a transformation! What a metamorphosis! Look at the earth and then look at your body, what a transformation. And you never marveled at all this! The dust has become divine. What is greater mystery ever possible? What bigger miracle are you waiting for? Yet watch this miracle happen every day. From the mud, the lotus is born, and from the dust, our splendid body is born. '
IN THE VIDEO ON THE SIDE - PRAYAN & MARCO FADDA IN THE 'FREE' REMAKE A SONG OF STEVIE WONDER TRANSFORMED INTO A MEDITATION SONG.
'Free as the river
that flows freely in immensity.
Free to be sure
of who I am and who I don't need to be.'
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